

Sean

Milo

Marty

Nov 22 2025: Every now and then I do something that accidentally makes me feel especially like a primate, and I suddenly feel connected with all of evolution and humankind's universally shared history. Like this morning, I was trying to reach a box of tea on a top shelf, and rather than stand on something to get it, I grabbed a fork from the dishrack and used it to pull the tea forward. I felt so primatelike--primal?--using a simple tool to reach a tasty leaf just out of my reach. Such an incredible thing, our use of tools! What delight in fulfilling a capability that feels so basic to me that it's hardly considered a capability at all!

Nov 17 2025: I feel like I've lost all my will to read books, I used to be able to read for hours and now my attention starts waning after like 10 minutes and I have to force myself to keep going. I grabbed a book this morning and read for half an hour instead of going straight for my laptop and I'm proud but it also feels like a marathon.
Maybe manga and zines have spoiled me cause I'm still reading those no prob; I like pictures and collage and craziness so the relatively quiet pages of books aren't holding my attention. I've also been alright reading nonfiction, maybe because it feels like there's more for my brain to engage with?
I suspect all of this is because I'm still unemployed so I have so much time that I'm feeling pent up. Of course I find things to fill the time with, but because I'm not exhausted with work I'm always looking for things that are more engaging than relaxing. I'm tryint to see this neutrally/non-judgmentally, but it's hard not to see everything in my life as unbalanced, some sort of Problem to Fix, ya know?

Nov 16 2025: WHYY my site is rendering the spaces in my clip path SVG as actual spaces on the page? Why do none of these clip path tutorials mention this??? XML fml. I swear if anyone looked at my code they would be disgusted but I don't care, I just want to achieve The Look.

name: wesley
♡⸝⸝ coffee
♡⸝⸝ back to the future
♡⸝⸝ beastie boys
♡⸝⸝ ace attorney

"It seems 100 years ago the meaning of the word 'lazy' was different. I think of it now as meaning slovenly, but in this song, this person is obsessed with reading books all day and being in their own mind and seems much more like a cerebral person lost in their own mind." --John Flansburgh on "Lazy"
Every time I see a puppy on a summer's day
A puppy dog at play
My heart is filled with envy
That's why I'm in such a hurry to pass the time away
Like that pup, I'm all fed up
And though it's wrong to be
I long to be lazy
I want to be lazy
I long to be out in the sun with no work to be done
Under that awning they call the sky
Stretching and yawning and let the world go drifting by
I want to peep through that deep tangled wildwood
Counting sheep 'til I sleep like a child would
With a great big valise full of books to read where it's peaceful
While I'm killing time being lazy
I hate to hurry through life and worry
I'll be so glad when I am among the chickens
With Mr. Dickens or Mr. Omar Khayyam
To keep me company when I'm tired of poetry
I'm gonna be there dozing with birds
Composing a pillowy willowy melody
And when it showers the bees and flowers
Will be my umbreller until it's over
Then in the clover, I'll dream of Rockefeller
As busy as a bee, selling oil to you and me
I'll pity that man
What an oil can he turned out to be
Lazy
I want to be lazy
I long to be out in the sun with no work to be done
Under that awning they call the sky
Stretching and yawning and let the world go drifting by
I want to peep through that deep tangled wildwood
Counting sheep 'til I sleep like a child would
With a great big valise full of books to read where it's peaceful
While I'm killing time being lazy